Then, over a glass of wine with my fabulous good friend Marie-Laure a number of weeks in the past, I defined to her that I’d been feeling off this spring. “Well, a lot happened to you,” she stated. And then all the things snapped into focus. I used to be harm by the breakup, however I used to be devastated by my grandmother’s demise. She and I have been shut, and she or he all the time knew that being single was something that bothered me, so it bothered her that I used to be bothered. She needed me to satisfy somebody so I might be completely satisfied. When she was gone, I felt a lot unhappiness over the truth that she’d by no means get to see me fall in love and get married. It felt unfair — particularly once I noticed individuals round me hitting these milestones on the similar time I used to be grieving. It’s nonetheless one thing I’m bitter over.